I wish I knew...

There's a lot of things I wished I knew sooner.... But here I am... And I've changed how I'm using my platforms; all of them. I struggled with showing up when I received an large wave of supporters; first women as I embraced my grey hair... then others mostly wanting me to share photos NSFW... I went from struggling with myself, to finding myself (feeling empowered) to showing up more... to shrinking. The damaging parts of my journey came from letting go of the narrative of showing up for others and listening to my inner voice and trusting my intuition of vulnerability... by knowing I was going to lose people by choosing my own path.

IT'LL BE OKAY, I PROMISE...

I say things to myself... to reassure myself, it's going to be okay. I talk myself through things that would have once sent me spiraling or hiding.

I think it's a hundred percent okay to change how you do things... change your mind... make U-turns and even step off path. I think it's okay to decide this... is not the way I want to do this... This is not my path... and maybe I'll take a look over here... in the darkness where I've been hiding bits and pieces of myself that I felt ashamed of... or told to be ashamed of.

I'm doing that while not doing that... I'm learning.... And in the process of learning, I've been doing things differently and seeing the bigger picture out a window I've never looked out before. (read on)

In the last month... I've been writing short personal stories and thoughts. It's a way of sorting through the details... and helping me organize my path forward. I'm in the beginning stages of writing a book, and to write a book... you have to write... so, I am on a free platform about my journey and thoughts on the Camino de Santiago on BUYMEACOFFEE.com

I love this pic... I was standing outside a surf hostel in Portugal, with my backpack still on waiting to check in after my journey across Spain. I love happy I am; it's palpable. The ocean and the journey agrees with me.

Best of Life, Polly